Wednesday, July 19, 2006
i'm feeling very confused.
like i don't know what i'm doing with my life? i mean seriously, what am i doing intentionally pulling myself away from God? and i keep stressing about my studies but can't seem to get started on studying. i just feel really really lost, like somehow i don't even know who i can trust anymore. it's almost as if everything is just slowly slipping away from me. this may sound very dramatic, or not, but its just hurting me so much, till the point that i really don't know what to do.

okay maybe i do know what to do, and i did it already, well partially. i realised that me trying to survive on my own, without God ,is never going to work. well it's in the healing stage, you know my relationship with God? yes i am very glad (: i'm sure everything will turn out better!
Psalm 138
hmm talking it out does make one feel much better(:

school was utter bullcrap today.
sat in the hall for three hours before having a long recess followed by sitting in the hall for another three hours. watching performance after performance and some were like uhmm boring! the school should seriously stop calling in wayang people cause like, we do not enjoy it, AT ALL. hur
haagen daz with tara, lorry, theresa and angeline after school. feel guilty for spending so much and for eating so much too! ):
bused with lorrypoop to tampines to try to catch the 4 40 show for pirates of the caribbean! we got there at 5! but we went to watch it anyway! oh gosh it was so brilliantly good! but not as good as the first one. and i can finally see the hotness of johnny depp. i mean the way he walks is so gay-ishly cute! yes there is such a thing, believe it. hahaha
after the show we went to meet cham at the interchange and bused to tara's for dinner. suddenly remembered that there was singapore idol that night and was like screaming from the lift landing to tara at her door if her teevee was switched on. i'm such a retard larh :/
and her funky auntie supports joakim too! hahaha she was so hilarious! cursing at the judges and shooshing everyone when joakim was going to sing. haha and both of us were happily cheering for him! (: but everyone didn't sing that good today :/
oh anyway, dinner was superb. meatballs were as good as ikea's! (: homemade ice cream cake with ben and jerry's ice cream was simply marvellous.
well happy birthday tara (:

that's it, i'm off to sleep.
emo-moodswingy days, there have been many recently